Just a rant.

Is it wrong to cry right now? How about this week? How about a few times a month? How about a few every single month, literally? It's not wrong? Okay... because that's whats been happening. And today is a first for this week. One thing I really hate is parents interupting what you're saying. They say stuff like, "You cant interrupt us because we're your parents." Well, we're all humans! And its like they dont LET me get mad at them. I have the rights to feel angry or upset or annoyed!

I'll copy and paste what I told Sumin:

x vampire knight: supposedly its the way i act but it smy mom's fault cuz she never lets me finish talking, so yesteray i told them some teachers are going on strike so the class is gonna be short on subs and some students are going but i told them im gonna go anyway then today during dinner my mom tells me LAUSD called and say that they will have enough teachers and i told her "yea but my teacher said that--" and she goes "Well, they just called and--" and omfg i was gonna agree and say how yes, the students should be in school cuz then if they arent, it means they support the pink slip thing but the way she buts in while im talking pissed me off so i just said "nevermind." and i was going crazy so i just scratched my head then decided i wanted to go eat downstairs instead of upstairs with them so I just went downstairs and my dad was like "I HATE THE WAY YOU ACT! Who do you think you are?! Giving us attitude." and in my head im like WTF?! "Why do you care with what your friend said? HUH?! Its always your friends." (cuz waverly was saying how she doesnt wanna go) And I told him "I was trying to explain to you what the teacher said. I was agreeing with you." and hes like "then why did you just cut off half way and leahve?" and im like "BC i dont know how to explain it SPECIFICALLY how you guys will understand."

Its true. When I explain things to them, they dont GET it and I have to explain stuff over and over. But this time I'm trying to explain SPECIFICALLY baby words to them. But how can I when they keep interrupting every freaking thing I'm about to say? It's bad enough I have short temper too! I dont care who it's toward. Whether it ssomeome older or younger. I have the right to have feelings! Though I wont express it (so I wont be disrespectful) its like theyre telling me, "YOU CAN NEVER GET ANGRY AT US." its like... OMFG IM FKING HUMAN TOO!

Man, these are thing sthat make me want to run out of my house. Instead, I lock myself in my room and cry to the point where I can barely breathe and my chest starts to hurt. At school or in front of people, I don't rant and I can't cry. I hold it in until I go to sleep. I dont even let my family see me like this. "I never see you cry," says a friend. Oh man, if only she knows how I cry every day inside. I just smile and reply with a nod.

Tomorrow there's AP english (which I will surely fail because we havent really done so well with reviewing) and I'm going to sleep early just because I dont want to stay up and see/hear anyone.