hot motorcycles

So today in the car on our way to... where was it? Oh yes, to Rose Hills, motorcycle gang rode passed us. Now dont picture anything scary because it wasn't. It was so cool. First about five passed us and I thought that was it. I looked in the back and motorcycles were scattered all over the place. There was about twenty of them. They dashed passed us but slowed down. I even took a picture. Then all around us (front, back, sides) were motorycle I was like :D HOW COOL and all the cars moved out of the left lane so the motorcycle people can stick together. So one of the motorcycle sped up and drove in front of cars and my aunt was saying how that person was probably trying to be a show off but then thought he might be the leader and he was. While his "people" was in the first lane, he was in the second waving his hand for them to go ahead of him and then he followed at the end. So hot, haha. Oh not to mentoin, there was this blue motorcycle and a yellow one and all I could picture under that helmet was some hottie because I liked the color/style of the bike too. I just kept staring going *__* HOW COOL. I even literally said "how cool" out loud.

Anyway.

Just a rant.

Is it wrong to cry right now? How about this week? How about a few times a month? How about a few every single month, literally? It's not wrong? Okay... because that's whats been happening. And today is a first for this week. One thing I really hate is parents interupting what you're saying. They say stuff like, "You cant interrupt us because we're your parents." Well, we're all humans! And its like they dont LET me get mad at them. I have the rights to feel angry or upset or annoyed!

I'll copy and paste what I told Sumin:

x vampire knight: supposedly its the way i act but it smy mom's fault cuz she never lets me finish talking, so yesteray i told them some teachers are going on strike so the class is gonna be short on subs and some students are going but i told them im gonna go anyway then today during dinner my mom tells me LAUSD called and say that they will have enough teachers and i told her "yea but my teacher said that--" and she goes "Well, they just called and--" and omfg i was gonna agree and say how yes, the students should be in school cuz then if they arent, it means they support the pink slip thing but the way she buts in while im talking pissed me off so i just said "nevermind." and i was going crazy so i just scratched my head then decided i wanted to go eat downstairs instead of upstairs with them so I just went downstairs and my dad was like "I HATE THE WAY YOU ACT! Who do you think you are?! Giving us attitude." and in my head im like WTF?! "Why do you care with what your friend said? HUH?! Its always your friends." (cuz waverly was saying how she doesnt wanna go) And I told him "I was trying to explain to you what the teacher said. I was agreeing with you." and hes like "then why did you just cut off half way and leahve?" and im like "BC i dont know how to explain it SPECIFICALLY how you guys will understand."

Its true. When I explain things to them, they dont GET it and I have to explain stuff over and over. But this time I'm trying to explain SPECIFICALLY baby words to them. But how can I when they keep interrupting every freaking thing I'm about to say? It's bad enough I have short temper too! I dont care who it's toward. Whether it ssomeome older or younger. I have the right to have feelings! Though I wont express it (so I wont be disrespectful) its like theyre telling me, "YOU CAN NEVER GET ANGRY AT US." its like... OMFG IM FKING HUMAN TOO!

Man, these are thing sthat make me want to run out of my house. Instead, I lock myself in my room and cry to the point where I can barely breathe and my chest starts to hurt. At school or in front of people, I don't rant and I can't cry. I hold it in until I go to sleep. I dont even let my family see me like this. "I never see you cry," says a friend. Oh man, if only she knows how I cry every day inside. I just smile and reply with a nod.

Tomorrow there's AP english (which I will surely fail because we havent really done so well with reviewing) and I'm going to sleep early just because I dont want to stay up and see/hear anyone.

Happy Mother's Day

:) Happy Mother's Day!

So yesterday was the Hollywood Bowl concert. Guess what?! XD I didn't go. Jiaying said Eva and Kevin were selling tickets for ten bucks but I still decided not to go. SS501 was there and I thought they sung only one song. Turns out (from soompier's fancam and pictures and comments) they sung about three to four and they were all my favorite songs.

Well, I had something important to do so eh. Since the artist/groups are leaving today, they might drop by some shopping malls? Hahaha. I'll just hope I can see SS501 one day on my own in real life without crazy fan girls pushing me away. Anyway, I went to uncle's house for a family matter. I sat down, took pictures from my dad's camera and my DSi (they're uploaded on my facebook). My cousin Danette brought her two year old baby Angelina, and she's so adorable. Well, only two days old not a big difference from any other babies, but newborn babies are beautiful :)

While we were at Uncle's house, I was looking for some drawing paper so I walked up to his office. On the couch were Grandma's pillow, carebear blanket, and the mini towels she always had with her. They were folded and the pillow was sitting on the seat, the blanket covering the head of the couch and the towels were set on the arm rest. I started getting teary. When all the family came, we wer edownstairs deciding who will get what for... something. So after I got my share, I went back upstairs to the office by myself and thanked my grandmother there while everyone thanked her downstairs.

After that, we all went to eat at a restaurant. I was almost tearing up because whenever we came here, she would come with us. Then I remembered what my cousin said in his speech that one day. That our grandmother was always the reason we were together. If she's at our uncle's house for an occasion, we would always be there. When it was a birthday and she's there, we would be together. And again, the day of the funeral, we were all together. And yesterday, the day we gathered for a family matter (her), we were all together.

Oh yeah, so Friday I took the APUS exam. I was surprise it was easier than the SAT subject one. It wasnt as hard as I expected though I missed a lot. The night before I sat on my bed and crossed my finger and hoped I would get at least a three. Our teacher is so nice. The day before the exam we decided to stay after school and study. he offered to buy us pizza and chips for us and the day of the exam to provide us with pens,pencils, erasers, chips, bagels, sandwiches, and sodas. THANK YOU SO MUCH! "Its the least I can do since you guys worked so hard." :) If only our other teachers can see that. This wednesday is the English one. *sigh* I'm sure to get less than a three since I usually fall asleep in the class. Actually, half of the class falls asleep x_x

I want sleep

Wow, so last night i went to sleep "early" which was around 10ish? When my mom woke me up in the morning, it was the same time she usually wakes me up for school so I thought, "What day is today? There's school?!" I forgot it was Saturday and I had SATs. So I went to take the subject test for one hour and then left. Then I came home and recorded and watched Friends and then Waverly calls me and tells me she's outside my house. I was like, "What? What for? YOu didnt call me first?" And supposedly Alan was already telling me he's coming. So I got into the car and we went to the park where they had my belated birthday party. We sat and sat for a long time waiting for others. Dinh, Andy, and Dinh's little brother came here and then Alan left to pick Joey up. I went to the playground with Dinh and her brother and we sat on the swings. I couldnt swing because each time I would bring my legs down, it would hit the ground. Either the swing is too low or my legs are too long. So we went back to the table and there were no cups or plates. We used the aluminum foil as "plate" and everyone (but me) did waterfall from the soda. Then Ivan came and it became fun. IT was really entertaining watching Dinh and Ivan attack each other. Anyway, a lot happened but right now, I'm really tired so I'm leaving a lot of stuff out. But thank you to Waverly and Alan and everyone else who planned it. And thanks for the gifts; the monkey and the card were really cute (thanks for the birthday wishes). I loved the card <333>_< And sorry for hiding your keys.... I actually hid it in Joey's badminton case ever since tag and I was wondering when you were going to notice. When Joey was going to leave I ran after her but Waverly took it out. I was going to give it to you but they said wait a little longer. SORRRY

I really wanted to play DDR because I havent worked out in a while. I thought we were going to go but it was a bit too late. But luckily today I got to go. I was at the mall playing DDR for a while until it froze on me. @_@ this is why LT is better. LT is 50 cents and the mall is 75 cents. And since I play double, it's double the price, so you do the math.

*groans* I want to go sleep. But tomorrow I have another practice APUS multiple choice test and I have physics hw to do. After testing... I AM FREE! Summer, no summer school! I'm going to work out! And hopefully meet up with Lizzie and Gracie and we go take cue pictures. I want to have a collection of cue pictures and make scrapbooks out of them, keke. Since Grace unni is older, she'll probably drive first but then again, I think Lizzie would.

*in the picture, the top right is a formation of two people-- Dinh & Andy

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Man, I need a work out, seriously! Cookies were calling my name and ignoring them is heartbreaking. I was planning to go to LT today to workout but I wouldn't have a ride back. I was planning to go on Saturday but change of plans. *sigh* so much testing going on. Last week was practice for AP US History, tomorrow is SAT for US History, the week after is real exam for AP US and then AP English. I just noticed that I'm slacking off more than ever. I need to stay in CSF, I need to have at least a 3.5, so I need someone to push me. I want to be in depressed mode where I dont eat much and do nothing but homework. So I decided until I get enough money to get my own camera, I'm going to use my dad's for now. I was looking through stock pictures, ulzzang pictures, and especially the photoshoot from WGM (so jealous), I wanted to do my own photoshoot. Obviously since I cant do them myself, I need models. So I asked some friends if they wanted to particpate and they're willing to.

I've been recording songs but they're horrible. The thing is, I'm using the mic from Rock Band so if you speak into it, you can hardly hear anything when playing the recording. So when friends listen to the song, they're like "you need to sound louder." The thing is, I'm already trying to sing the loudest I can, losing my breath, and still barely audible. I even blasted the speaker really high. Also, I sound better (doesnt everyone) with a little echo and my room is... not. Alan did a cover of BOF's OST and it was great so I asked if he can do one in english and we'll collab. David did the english version and I loved it. So if Alan agrees to do another cover, I'll ask David for permission.

Usually people get on my nerves like crazy. But have you noticed I haven't really complained about anyone as much as I use to? It's because I get so annoyed, disturbed, and angry to the point where I cant even tell anyone anymore. If I'd want to rant about "her," someone will stick up and say something like "well, she's just___. Cant blame her." I know that, this is why it's a rant. Sometimes I just need to let things out WITHOUT A REPLY. And sometimes, there are just things I dont get. I'm not going to write it here, though because it's kind of a really btchy question.


You'll probably never have a dream of me
And I know I'm in love all alone
That's why we don't really have memories
In the end, I'll make them all on my own

Love's like a river of tears
That will flow whenever you're not here
Even though your heart will never be mine
It's enough just seeing you smile
(c) david.